October has come upon us! Throughout August and September, so many things happened. Either in my life or in the international scenes. The ongoing North Korea missile tests over Japan, the arson case at a learning institution, the devastating hurricanes, and the latest one, the mass shooting in Las Vegas. There are things happening every day, good and bad, and here I am thinking about myself.
Whenever something happened, I will ask myself this question, what if it was me? A simple emphatical question that challenges the brain and the heart. What would I do? How would I react? Will I be able to survive? What should I do?
It is good to questions and takes time to contemplate with ourselves. We do have our own problems to attend, I too included. The most often line that crossed my mind was ‘If you feel you are an unfortunate person, there will always be other unfortunate people than you’. True, isn’t it?
For the past weeks, I am not really in a good mood because of something happened in my personal life. To be honest, I hate my current position regarding the matter and it looks like a dead end. I can only hope and pray for things to get better than before. My current mental state is under the weather and motivation is off the radar. I seriously need to motivate myself but I’m having a hard time about it.
This reminded when I went for a lunch with my bosses, my department boss, and her boss a few days ago. So, the big boss shared her stories and experiences, she mentioned that when she was in her previous company, she had no motivation to work at that time. The reason was, she had to deal with matters that contradicts her belief and philosophy. She decided to resign and she feels much better now. They also talked about A.I, Bitcoins and other matters as well, but I mostly listened and observing them.
One of the thing that I learned is, they are also human. I mean it not in a bad way, as a working person with big responsibilities and their working life is not 8am to 5pm but as long as their eyes open, work will always chase them around the clock. They faced problems as well, small or big. Again, I asked myself, how do they keep the positive vibes to work and keep themselves motivated?
From my observation, they are living their work. I assume that they cater their work life to fit their non-working life or vice versa. Perhaps, they managed their working life good enough. I can only make guesses and assumptions. As for me, I can’t fuse the two, working life and private life. I don’t want to talk about work at home and private life at work. I prefer to spend my private life in seclusion, playing video games, watching movies, eating, sleeping and more. The impact of a call or a text regarding work will instantly ruin my good mood and will make things worst.
I do have plans to get me out of this unbreakable chain of unfortunate moods, one that I can’t wait is a little vacation for myself in November. However, it doesn’t really get me to wake myself up in the morning! I know how to treat myself but that is what I have been doing ever since. All I wake up to is being hopeful on uncertain things, especially the things that I can’t control.
Well, I hope you all will do just fine! I wish you all the best in dealing with your daily life. I also hope that October will be nice to all of you. As for me, I will be quite busy because I need to assist with the programs in the department.