All the problem in the world.

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If there are ways,
To certainly be sure,
Of all the uncertainties,
Running around in my head,
As the nuisance,
In my daily life,

The ways probably solves,
All the problem in the world.

Jelas aku yang hodoh

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Ramai yang kata,
Biar dimakan waktu,
Yang sedih, yang pedih,
Memori yang semakin letih,
Diulang lagi dan lagi,

Ada pula yang kata,
Ganti dengan yang baharu,
Barulah hilang duka,
Hilang gelora jiwa,
Penawar kisah lama,

Dah bermacam cara dicuba,
Jangan cakap tentang ikan,
Gigi patah, bunga di taman,
Walau tujuh bilion manusia sekalipun,
Kalau bukan jodoh, jelas aku yang hodoh.

Waking up when everything ends

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I just have to let this one out,
Telling you how it feels,
When my anxiety hits,
Unknowingly,

My mood went from A to Z,
All the dark laziness is inside me,
I am too tired to think,
Letting this emptiness overwhelmed me,

The sleepiness gets me,
The watery eyes and nose,
Continuously feels like barfing,
Nothing out except the heavy feels,

Let me rest in my sanctuary,
A good comfy bed,
And hours of breathing death,
Waking up when everything ends.

Yang pernah penuh dengan cintamu.

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Andai kau mahu aku,
Hulurkan telapak tanganku,
Kau akan tahu,
Tiada apa yang aku sembunyikan,

Andai kau mahu aku,
Belah dadaku,
Kau akan tahu,
Hatiku tetap berdegup memanggilmu,

Walau kau telah pergi,
Aku di sini masih sendiri,
Aku tak menunggu,
Apatah lagi berharap,

Mungkin kau ingin tahu,
Kenapa aku tetap begitu,
Ibarat menunggu bulan purnama,
Kembali ke pangkuanku,

Tidak sayang,
Aku hanya bersedih,
Masih diselubungi sendu,
Masih lagi berkabung,

Walau ku cuba cari,
Masih belum sampai,
Penggantimu itu,
Mungkin tiada sebaikmu,

Jangan kau risau dan ragu,
Aku berlapang dada selalu,
Aku bahagia atas kemaafanmu,
Aku doakan hidup baru mu,

Jelas kau tinggalkan bekas dalam diriku,
Yang pernah penuh dengan cintamu.

On my bed

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I don’t want to sleep,
Only to wake up,
Feeling heartbroken,
And disappointed,

When my eyes closed,
And my soul taken,
To the dreamland,
Of unconscious desires,

Yet, I don’t want it to end,
I don’t want to wake up,
From the comfort slumber,
With your image existence,

I want this as a reality,
Of you besides me,
Spending our time together,
In a world of our own,

We dance and swirl,
We jest and laugh our heart out,
We lie down on the beach,
We cuddle up watching the sun set,

There is no too much,
Of love in the air,
Accompanying us,
Till the cold night,

I don’t want to stop here,
To write and feel,
The remnants of care,
And kindness,

One day,
I want to wake up,
With you beside me,
Like in my dreams,

But now I can only feel,
The disappointment and sadness,
Waking up alone,
On my bed.

I am clueless about myself

I am clueless about myself,
After all these battles,
All the wound and the scars,
It meant nothing,

I am tired and afraid,
For the future more,
Than thinking the past,
To bite me from behind,

I am losing my mind,
To understand the ebb and flow,
That stirs inside me,
Overflowing within me,

I am weakened,
Of the thoughts,
Going through uncertainties,
Again and again.

But the hollow heart stays.

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If you have asked me,
Am I tired of writing,
All the sad and broken,
Words and lines,

Trust me I am,
It is not a pleasure,
Nor a satisfaction,
But telling the pain inside,

I can no longer remember,
The written pieces,
About the beauty,
And lovely life was,

I am at peace,
But the hollow heart,
Stays.

To stay asleep and never wake up

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I can’t help to feel,
Silly and stupid,
Over this funny situation,
That leads to all these,
Unwanted feelings,

I don’t want to suffer,
Through all the brokenness,
That I thought I have fixed,
A long time ago,
A droplet of hope,

If I have to go through,
All these tears and pain,
For the exchange of,
Uncertainties,
With the cost of happiness,

I don’t know,
Where this leads,
Nor I know,
When it will end,
I just want,
To stay asleep and never wake up.

Too much to let go

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I still remember,
This feeling,
The burn,
Leaving scars,

The spiraling thoughts,
Crushing hopes,
To the depth,
Of uncertainties,

The unstoppable waves,
Of restless anxieties,
Gushing endless memories,
Of all we have been through,

The simple things,
The hard decisions,
The lovely moments,
And the teary nights,

Too much, dear,
Too much to forget,
Too much, love,
Too much to let go.