I’m still sane and alive.

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I can’t help to wonder,
That every moment spent,
To write down everything,
That plagues me from inside,

Is the very reason,
I’m still sane and alive.

And exhausted endlessly.

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It’s not easy,
When there is so much,
Inside of me,
Wanting to go out,

It’s not easy,
When I have to repress,
The loud thoughts,
Ready to rip out,

It’s not easy,
Struggling to be better,
But to be better,
Is never matter,

It’s not easy,
To feel understood,
When in my whole life,
No one wants to understand,

It’s not easy,
To fight alone,
In two fronts,
And never feel safe,

It’s not easy,
When every day,
Is another day,
To stop believing,

It’s not easy,
Just to live,
To feel disappointed,
And exhausted endlessly.

Project Social Distancing by Britt

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Dear friends and readers,

The pandemic has affected us in many ways. For myself, it has been exhausting and dreadful to handle because of the long lockdowns. Even so, I still have some source of income and a place to stay under. Others are not so fortunate. Some lost their source of income. Some lost their homes. Some lost both, and some lost their loved ones.

I would love to share about a project by a fellow writer, including her message.

My name is June Hew also known as Britt. I’m a 40 years old Chinese diaspora living in Malaysia. I’ve been suffering from mental health problem for many year s and things spiralled out of control 4 year s ago. I started seeking medical help then because I couldn’t conceal my condition anymore. The same time I lose my livelihood, losing my job and being without support.

I’ve started a website recently to slowly get back to writing. I was very active before everything went out of my control. Started selling printed t-shirt hoping to help with my daily expenses.

Britt

You can reach at;
https://rebelbritt.wordpress.com/
britt.curatedconsumption@gmail.com

Donation;
PayPal.Me@Britt365

Project Social Distancing;
https://www.bonfire.com/im-social-distancing-1/

I appreciate every help and assistance. Thank you!

Write Ally! Write! 2018 Rewind

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Hey all,

I was trying to clear some drafts and this post has been stuck for few years now. I was not feeling good back then. I was not ready to share anything. I was not ready to face anything in life.

I don’t feel like deleting it because I don’t want to forget. Well, I am sharing it here. 


Greetings everyone,

Annually, I would write about the highlights of my blog for the year.

Usually, I would post it before the new year of a week after but this time it is unavoidable. It is already two weeks in January and I am struggling to write my posts.

I would summarize things that happened to me, to serve as lesson for myself. I will share with you the most viewed posts in 2018. Plus, my plan and expectations in 2019.

What Happened 2018?

I would call my early 2018 was hectic, personal point of view. I was wondering what am I and the definition of myself. Things were looking pretty tensed and the workload was quite crazy too.

Towards the end of February, I lost my grandmother, she was sick for few months that time. We already had plan to fly to Indonesia before that, we already bought the ticket for her. It was really heartbreaking for me every time I have to remember back. In March, me and my family fly to Indonesia, specifically to Bawean Island. It was more than 20 years since my last visit.

Nothing much except the crazy amount of work. I started to feel anxious about my workload in mid 2018. I believe I wrote less posts too.

In December, I tendered my resign and served a month notice. However, to ease the transition, I will be working as a temp for a month until 31st January 2019. The reason for my resignation was ‘I can no longer handle my depression’.

I was diagnosed and I have severe depression. For the first time in my life, I finally have the courage to see a doctor. The symptoms was not new, I have been cooping up with my depression since I was 10.


– I stopped writing here – 

2017 REWIND! Write Ally Write!

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Fellow readers and friends,

We are few days away to celebrate a new year, 2018! If I were to describe my 2017, it was rejections, eye-opening, hopeful, eventful, emotional, freedom, wise and lovely. The events happened this year are mostly work related and there are some personal stuff but manageable. Hopefully.

It is the year where I quit my 2 years job as a Associate/ Content Editor. Then, I had a very short career break for 4 months. Where I mostly used to write more and explore more of my creative side. Then, I was hired to work in an investment bank and enjoying my time learning in the HR department.

2017 also quite memorable because I went to travel alone to Kuching and really enjoyed myself there.

I managed to publish two e-books:

1. Ally And The Daily Prompt (March 2017)
2. The Thirty Days (June 2017)

My e-books are free and available in different formats. Do support me by leaving a rating in Goodreads and share it with your friends and family!

You can find my Goodreads page through here: Ally Mare Goodreads

All my book projects are currently on halt and my writing time has been tremendously cut down. I am mostly busy with work right now. I will try my best to spend my time in writing!

As I did last year, I present you my Top 10 poems in 2017! The top list are based on views!

TOP 10 POEMS 2017

  1. Happy Together (November)
  2. Will you follow me? (July)
  3. Each others company (November)
  4. Human emotions are like diamonds (October)
  5. Heavenly exposure (November)
  6. The joy of cooking (January)
  7. To someone who don’t appreciate them (June)
  8. And remain still in sadness (July)
  9. That is me in pain (September)
  10. “I am here with you” (November)

TOP 5 ALLY’S THOUGHTS

  1. And December came (December)
  2. Let’s Talk About Texting (November)
  3. The Talented Musician, Yuta Tanaka (September)
  4. Did They Approved? (June)
  5. Signs of A Loyal Person (October)

That’s all for the lists section.

Moving on, 2017 is also a year where I managed to meet wonderful people! I also managed to meet with other writers too!

Special shout out to these wonderful people! Thank you for your time and hopefully we will meet again!

SPECIAL SHOUTOUT

Singledust @ Living on the equator but longing for snow

Red Beanie

Mintly @ Mints Blog

Yuta Tanaka / YOUTUBE

And I hope I will be able to meet more writers, bloggers and talented people in 2018. Lets have a cup of coffee together! Do check their sites for wonderful posts.

WHAT TO EXPECT IN 2018

Other than hoping all the good things, I don’t really have anything else to ask. I will just be busy with work, movies, buying books that I have no time to read, meeting new faces, travelling, and hopefully a partner? Exciting isn’t it?

That’s all for now. I wish you all the best in 2018. To me, entering a new year is just the same. It’s not about having a resolution or having the perfect plan but its how I would spend my time in the best way I can. I do have plans and I’m working on it but ultimately, I want to enjoy every moment that I have with the people around me, the time for myself, and do the things that I want. It’s much more interesting that way, isn’t it?

That’s all for now. I wish you all a happy new year!

 

A Novella: My Unsent Love Letters by Ally L. Mare

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Did you still remember that I wrote a novella and share it in Inkitt? I finally posted all the chapters in Inkitt and you can finally read it until the end!

I can’t post the novella here. Also, I will not upload it as an ebook. However, you can read the novella using the link below.

My Unsent Love Letters by Ally L Mare

I really need your help on this. If you find my novella is interesting and exciting, please share it with your friends. It would be a great deal if you do.

Blurb

A hard breakup made James’ life difficult and he had no motivation on his work or his life. Things changed when he accidentally met his college crush after few years since their graduation. James could not tell how he feels directly, so he wrote his crush, Anna, love letters which he could not send.

All comments are appreciated! Thank you very much and have a great weekend!

Support Ally Mare In PuckerMob!

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Hi everyone!

I need your help! Did you know I also write for other sites as well? One of them is PuckerMob!

I usually write on relationship topics which I don’t really publish here. I will be so grateful if you would read them and let me know your thoughts!

This is my profile page: Ally Mare @ PuckerMob

This is my latest post: Why I keep Chasing A Leo?

My other posts:

Why I keep Falling For Nerds?

She Blames PMS again. Should her?

Better Things Than ‘Looping A Song Over And Over’!

I will be writing more articles here later. Help me out will you!

Mystery Blogger Award!

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I was tagged by Es Ellie @ Writer’s Ink for this amazing award! She recently hits her One Year anniversary, so lets congratulates her! I’m sure she will reach more milestones in WordPress! And sorry for the lateness of this post.

“Mystery Blogger Award” is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging; and they do it with so much love and passion. – Okoto Enigma

Let’s thank Okoto Enigma for this amazing award that play major roles in bringing bloggers closer together!

*She is a wonderful blogger and have a wonderful blog to read too! If you haven’t follow her, do it now!

Rules:

  • Display the award logo/image on your blog
  • List the rules.
  • Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to the nominator’s blog.
  • Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  • Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  • Answer 5 questions from the nominator
  • Nominate 10 -20 bloggers
  • Notify your nominees by leaving the nomination link in the “comment” of their blog
  • Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice, with one weird or funny question (specify)
  • Share the link(s) to your best post(s)

Three things about me:

  • I actually like my hair long.
  • I rarely buy new clothes.
  • I like Pride and Prejudice. 😀

Questions from Es Ellie:

  1. What was the last funny thing you’ve said?
    • “The build was so old that Harambe died two times…” I typed it when I was playing a game.
  2. what are your summer plans?
    • Living in Malaysia means you don’t have any summer plan. haha.
  3. Do you have a favorite YouTube Channel? If so what?
    • I don’t have any favorite but I do subscribe to Jimmy Kimmel and Kinoshita Yuko.
  4. What is your favorite song?
    • I have a lot!
  5. What is your favorite thing to blog about?
    • Poetry of course.
  6. How often do you blog?
    • Previously I would blog every day but now, three times a week.
  7. How well do you manage your time?
    • Pretty well because I love to manage the things that I want to do.
  8. If you could have any job in the world when you grow up, what would it be?
    • I am already a grown up and working towards it. I want to be a writer, a poet, someone who writes or whatever you want to call them.
  9. Do you go to school or are you homeschooled?
    • I went to school.
  10. What is your favorite thing about school? (if you have one)
    • The thing I like about school is the friends but not the exams and stuff.

My Nominees:

My Questions:

  1. Do you have a plan for everything or you just go with the flow?
  2. Have you ever thought of the things that made you special?
  3. If you plan to go for a movie, who is in your mind to invite first?
  4. Last embarrassing moment you had?
  5. What do you think we need in order to make the world better?

My Best Post:

Promoting my latest book: https://writeallywrite.wordpress.com/2017/06/18/new-free-e-book-the-thirty-days-by-ally-l-mare/

That’s all  for now guys! Have a wonderful weekend!

[NEW FREE E-BOOK] The Thirty Days by Ally L. Mare

Hi fellow readers and friends!

How is your weekend? I hope everything is fine and lovely!

I have published my third poetry e-book and like the previous two… It is FREE!

The Thirty Days is a compilation of my NaPoWriMo writing this year and it was my first NaPoWriMo experience! I was quite fortunate to be able in completing the challenge.

Some of the prompts  were challenging and definitely not easy to be approached. To be honest, I feel satisfied and happy completing the challenge. I can’t help it  but  to say, I am proud of my work! I hope you guys are proud too on your work!

I know NaPoWriMo was two months ago. I actually completed the book last month but my schedule and motivation doesn’t really mixed well. However, I managed to publish it today!

The Thirty Days by Ally L Mare

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There are pretty much other stuff that has been pending in my work. Something like my Inkitt Novella. Yes, I am caught red handed. I haven’t finished uploading the whole Novella. My only reason would be, I don’t have the privilege of time at the moment. The only thing I can do right now is to complete it one by one.

Anyway, thank you for reading and I hope you guys download and read my new ebook and do leave some rating! I seriously appreciate rating and feedback from all of you.

 

Ally And One Lovely Blog Award!

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I was nominated by Jamie @ Don’t Give A Jam for this award.

Do visits her blog for her amazing adventure in life. She has wonderful sense of fashion style too. If you are a beauty enthusiast, she is definitely worth to follow!

I am actually excited that this is actually my first One Lovely Blog Award! Thank you Jamie for considering my blog to be a lovely one.

Rules:

  • Thank the person who nominated you and link to their blog
  • Post about the award
  • Share 7 facts about yourself
  • Nominate 15 people
  • Let your nominees know you’ve nominated them!

7 Facts about Myself

  1. I like pizza and I can eat a whole Large pizza on my own.
  2. I am ready to go anywhere wearing t-shirt, khakis and slippers. Anywhere!
  3. One of my goal is: Taking my friendship network globally!
  4. I don’t mind interracial relationship.
  5. I spend a lot of money on food.
  6. I like myself more when I have a shoulder down long hair.
  7. I am a ISFJ-A person.

I Nominate

You guys have lovely and interesting blogs! So, lets share them with the rest of the world!

I hope everyone will have a great and lovely weekend!