Write Ally! Write! is celebrating 5th Anniversary with WordPress! To be honest, I am happy to be here and keep things going. 5 years sounds fairly new but after all the ups and down between life and writing, it feels a long time ago.
So, what about some updates?
Ever since the Covid-19 pandemic, I have been spending time work-from-home (WFH). I gained weight. Plus, I think I spent too much on online shopping and food delivery services.
My mental health? Well, I think I’m getting better in managing myself. My doctor still wants me to continue medication and see how things are going for the next few months.
I have few things in mind especially for a new book. I might consider if I have the right motivation to proceed. Plus, I finally get rid of the .wordpress and get a domain name. Might as well utilize everything.
Staying too much at home really creeps me. I can’t help to feel lonely and wanting to talk to someone. The problem is… being someone reserved can be dreadful too. I want to share the things that dwell inside me but I want to share it to someone that would really care. That person is still yet to arrive.
That’s all for now. Hope you all are doing well and stay safe!
I hope my friends and readers are doing well and staying safe.
I haven’t been writing much on my thoughts, I don’t even know why. It’s not that I don’t have any opinions or thoughts on anything. It’s just that in some days, some thoughts are better left unsaid. That was for the best.
However, today on the 21st February 2021, a supposed special day with a unique date. I really want to express this gratitude of mine towards the creative community. Yes, you are one of them!
Recently, I can’t help to look back where I am now compared to where I was years ago. Before I had my WordPress site, during my build up phase, and the present. I realized how big the creative community impacted myself in motivation and building myself.
You are my main inspiration, each and everyone of you. Your words, writings, thoughts, ideas, arts, and the endless creativity inspires me to find myself. You are talented, supportive, helpful, and kind too. I saw some of you struggled but keep on fighting. I realized some of you went missing but came back. I am honestly excited and happy when you published your books, completed your artwork, being sponsored, and achieve your goals.
No matter what, there will always someone read my posts. Yes, you did. Sometimes, you left me some comments. Thank you! You keep on supporting my site by reading, liking, and leaving a comment. You have been here since day one too! I do remember that you nominated me with countless of awards earlier, that really helps me here. You connected me with other wonderful and lovely souls in the community.
It is impossible for me to be here without you. I quit jobs, getting jobs, getting depressed, fighting through it, and finding myself in the weirdest place. I whine here, I ranted here, I expressed here, and all my pasts are here. I will find myself to be here, even in the future. No matter how tossed I was, how wrecked I would be, or how beautiful my life could be. To be here with the community is a place that I could never found if I didn’t take the first step. I am not leaving, will always be here together with you.
The one that left
Last year, a dear friend left us. A young talented writer passed away. While her social media was handled and managed by her friends, her WordPress still exists. I think her friends couldn’t retrieve her credentials on that matter. May her soul find peace and blessing.
It made me realized if some other writers in the same situation. They didn’t come back because they are no longer here. The thought creeps on me and made me sad. I don’t know how many of you left, without even saying goodbye to us. I can only pray and hope that all is well. Even if it’s true, I can pray you will be in peace.
I believe in you!
If you feel lost and unmotivated, I won’t tell you to stop. Take a break and get some rest. Do it again when you are ready. If other people doesn’t tell you, let me tell this… I BELIEVE IN YOU! I believe in your words, your arts, your passion, your creativity, and the strength in you.
Keep on writing, creating, and don’t forget to give back to the community. There will always be someone new that starts their journey.
And please, do reach me on other social media platform.
Hey everyone, for the rest of the year 2020, this will be my theme song.
This is a Japanese song by LiSA called ‘unlasting’. While the official video is available, The First Take version definitely hits me to the core and left me shaken. Subtitle is available and I hope you would enjoy it.
I want to say a lot of things about the song but… Why don’t you decide it for yourself? Enjoy!
I just finished watching The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society on Netflix. I added it on My List for quite some times. Only now I have the feel to watch it. I am glad not a second wasted on this movie.
The movie is based on a novel with the same title written by Mary Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows that was published in 2008.
The movie is about Juliet, a writer from London received a letter from a book club in Guernsey called The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society. Yes, it’s a mouthful one indeed but there are circumstances. Led by curiosity, Juliet went to Guernsey to uncover the truth behind the book club.
As usual in Ally’s Thoughts segment, this is not a review of a movie but more on sharing few points and perspective that really caught my attention in the movie. There might be few spoilers around, if you don’t want to be spoiled, turn around now.
The place we truly belong
Perhaps, not everyone would resonate about it. However, there are people out there that are looking for a place they would call home, family, and longed for familiar connections with the people around them.
Imagine there are so many things going on in your life, suddenly, you feel that the thing that is happening to you feels so distant. While you have accomplished so much, yet, you still feel something missing.
That thought made you wonder and ponder, made you searched to understand. You are looking for an answer, no mediocre ones can really satisfy you. While everyone around you tried to convince you otherwise, you kept on and believe in the voices of your heart.
I believe that is what Juliet has experienced. She was not ready to settle in her current state. She still couldn’t get off her pasts and searching for something to give her strength to move on. She found a reason when she received the letter from Dawsey.
She was probably doubting herself a lot before making that decision. To step out and look for something. Driven by her curiosity and guts. She couldn’t let go. This was shown many times in the movie.
Even when there were resistance directly telling her to stop and carry on from the book club. She stayed in Gurnsey and building deeper connection with the club members. Her strong feeling keeps on guiding her to stay for the sake of uncovering the truth. In the end, she uncovered the truth about the club and the truth about herself. The truth about what she strongly believed.
I believe that there are plenty of times in my life, I tried to be rational about things. There are times when I decide to ignore my feeling and live up to the standard norm. Nothing wrong with that, the decisions were made by myself. There are no points in regretting them.
However, there are plenty of time as well that some decisions left my feeling to voice out louder. The feeling went so intense that I can’t ignore. Later, the feeling won over my rational decision.
Perhaps that was the decision that we truly belonged. Like there are forces that intervened and brought out new perspectives.
There are so many quotes from the movie I wished to share but there are not many available in the web. Even so, I would really love to share this one.
Such a small thing, just a book. Yet, it brought me all this way.
There are times when the smallest thing in our life made us brace ourselves and brought out the courage inside us. Some may be insignificant to others but to us, it leads us to the place we truly belong.
Now, I really need to find the book and read it. That is how it usually happened to me. Movies first, then the books.
When I started this journey, I just want to write everything in my head and share it. I never thought mine are great or meaningful at all. All I want is to let things go and clear my thoughts and inspiration. Creating an outlet for my passion.
I realized the importance of writing everything along the way. There are times I feel stuck and things spiraling down. Every time I wrote them down, I feel liberated in some way. I can be too reserved that only pen and paper would be my outlet. I mostly have no one else to talk with except the walls.
It has been a great journey ever since. I get to read wonderful posts by the community. I get to make friends and even met some of them. It was a great experience too. I admit that there are times where I made errors and mistakes. I can be immature and selfish at times too. I am really sorry if I ever offended anyone here.
I have been reading back the posts here, there are times I feel like a different person. It feels like I don’t even remember writing them.
The truth is I am really tired now. I am tired of trying too. I am mostly working from home and rarely go out. So, that would probably be reason I have been having spiraling thoughts. At this moment, sleeping is the best thing going on for me.
Not really expecting my 1000th post to be something like this but I really need to write this away.
Throughout the Movement Control Order imposed by the Malaysian government during the pandemic crisis, I managed to catch up with the highly rated Netflix series ‘YOU’. I am late but it’s better than never, right?
It has been a long time too since I wrote something for Ally’s Thoughts. So, I will share my thoughts about the series. Unlike any review, I will not review about the series in how good it is or how bad it is. My opinion on such will probably irrelevant and it will simply a bias perspective.
Therefore, as other Ally’s Thoughts posts, I will choose a theme or a perspective to share or discuss relating to the series.
For those who haven’t watch the series, more or less there will be spoilers. So, spoilers alert!
“Sometimes, we do bad things for the people we love.” – Joe
It’s true that we are able to do bad things for the people we love but no matter how much we want to justify it, bad thing is bad.
In Joe’s perspective, he did it to protect the person he loved. He would do anything to be by her side and keep her safe. Ironically in the end, he killed Beck, his lover.
I have been in love and I understand how loving someone can be hurtful. The good things lasts while it last. However, the bad and painful things stays like a scar forever even after it healed.
I always believe that relationship is not magic and will never reach ‘perfection’. There is no such thing because great relationships are built and made. My upbringing and my surrounding taught me, we can never satisfy everyone and it is normal to argue about something whenever we have differences.
The important thing is to work things out. For example, Joe killed Benji. It showed early the ‘love’ that Joe was experiencing was no longer attraction but more of an obsession. How could Joe work this situation out?
Don’t! He should just back off and give Beck some space. Why? In Beck’s perspective, Joe is a guess or a stranger in her life. Instead of trying to respect that, Joe did everything to justify his ‘love’ as a reason.
I’m sure we all can relate that there are times we come to other people’s life and there are times too when others came into ours. Some stayed, some left. In the end what is the point? It is all about the learning and lessons.
Other than that, the series is really entertaining and a must watch!
As promised, this is the first part for Ally’s Thoughts: Bitcoin is a scam? Part 1. Again, Bitcoin is not a scam? Let me tell you why it is not.
A Digital Asset
Bitcoin (BTC) is a type of digital asset, also known as virtual asset, cryptocurrency, and virtual currency. Imagine a gold bar, Bitcoin is the gold of the internet. It is also similar on how our physical money, deposited into the bank and we transferred the money into our e-wallet or digital wallet.
Unlike normal currencies like US Dollar (USD), Japan Yen (JPY), or Malaysian Ringgit (MYR) issued by the country’s central bank. BTC is a decentralized asset. Which means, no entity have complete control over BTC. Doesn’t make sense? At first it is but nothing is impossible nowadays.
You probably have been wondering how a type of asset are not centrally governed. BTC is using a technology called blockchain. Blockchain is a digital ledger that will record every transaction into a block and chained with the previous blocks. It is you are writing all the transactions in a book and after each page is verified, it will move on to the next page.
Normal book means you are the keeper, so you own the book and keep all the transactions right? That is not the case in blockchain because it is recorded and shared within its network. It is like everyone in your family have the same exact copy of the book and it is updated in real time using a system. Lets say you lost your book, you just need to copy from one of your family members and that’s it. Everything is there.
Unlike physical money that is printed by the central bank, BTC is produced by the blockchain technology. How? Each new transactions and blocks will be verified and approved by a number of computers in the network. Once the transactions and blocks approved, the blockchain will reward each computers a certain amount of BTC.
Remember the example above about your family having the exact copy of the transaction book? Every time a transaction is recorded in your book, your family members need to verify and approve it. Then, they will be rewarded by the system.
However, the BTC supply is capped at 21 Million. Currently, it is around 18 Million in circulation. This is why Bitcoin is considered valuable for some people.
That’s all for this part. I am trying my best to get too technical. If there are anything that you want me to clarify, do write me a comment.
Is it? Of course it is not. Scammers tricked unsuspecting desperate people thinking it is the fastest way to help their financial troubles.
Sorry for the long break and silence. I was pretty busy with work for the past few months until I no longer have one. Surprised? Me too.
I have been working in a media company that focused on cryptocurrency and blockchain technology. I have like zero knowledge about the industry and I was clueless. However, six months into it, I am not expert but I am moderately informed. So to speak.
I will share with all of you on what I have learned and acquired. Therefore, you will not be fooled or scammed by these scammers. I am here to raise awareness about what is Bitcoin and how to educate yourself about Bitcoin!
There are so many things I wanted to share, I will break Ally’s Thoughts into few parts. So, you won’t get confused or get a headache because of too much information.
We are here, in December and leaving 2019. The truth is, it was a really rough year for me. Too rough and I still try to stabilize the aftermath.
I want to share it here because I know that there are more out there having bad times, worst than mine.
After working for almost 2 years in a good place, I started to feel depressed. Early 2019, I got myself diagnosed and referred to a psychiatric clinic. Now, I’m under medication and having a new job.
For those who are struggling with mental illness, I hope you found the courage to break out from the void and get some help. Then, the real battle starts there because wanting to feel good and ‘normal’ is ridiculously hard.
It is hard to find someone you can trust, to share the things you are experiencing right now. Find the right channel and you are not alone.
Now, I am into 10 months under medication and I am still far away being healthy. However, slowly I feel my motivation is coming back. As I was going through all these, I realized so many things about my situation. It opened my eyes and I hope you will find it in your journey too.
Thank you very much for reading and visiting my site. I am sorry for neglecting my WordPress community with less posts and less visiting your sites. I am ashamed but I really feel good whenever I return here.
Wishing you all the best in the year 2020. May all of you receive great blessing and find success in the things you want to achieve. Happy New Year!