For each other.

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Have I gone crazy?
Or going crazy?
Because why,
You appeared in my dream,
When I think of you,
And you appeared in my dream again,
When I don’t think of you,
What was it then?
Longing? Premonition? Signs?
Or simply a curse,
That none of us dare to accept,
That we were meant,
For each other.

A cycle of self-destruction.

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I couldn’t bear,
To listen,
All the songs,
That reminds me of you,
Reminds me of us,
Reminds me of the relationship,
That we had,
And we could have,

Every love songs,
Sounds like a heartbreak,
And every sad songs,
Opened up old wounds,

Repeatedly, and endlessly,
A cycle of self-destruction.

Ally’s Thoughts: 210221

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I hope my friends and readers are doing well and staying safe.

I haven’t been writing much on my thoughts, I don’t even know why. It’s not that I don’t have any opinions or thoughts on anything. It’s just that in some days, some thoughts are better left unsaid. That was for the best.

However, today on the 21st February 2021, a supposed special day with a unique date. I really want to express this gratitude of mine towards the creative community. Yes, you are one of them!

Recently, I can’t help to look back where I am now compared to where I was years ago. Before I had my WordPress site, during my build up phase, and the present. I realized how big the creative community impacted myself in motivation and building myself.

The inspirations

You are my main inspiration, each and everyone of you. Your words, writings, thoughts, ideas, arts, and the endless creativity inspires me to find myself. You are talented, supportive, helpful, and kind too. I saw some of you struggled but keep on fighting. I realized some of you went missing but came back. I am honestly excited and happy when you published your books, completed your artwork, being sponsored, and achieve your goals.

The supports

No matter what, there will always someone read my posts. Yes, you did. Sometimes, you left me some comments. Thank you! You keep on supporting my site by reading, liking, and leaving a comment. You have been here since day one too! I do remember that you nominated me with countless of awards earlier, that really helps me here. You connected me with other wonderful and lovely souls in the community.

The future

It is impossible for me to be here without you. I quit jobs, getting jobs, getting depressed, fighting through it, and finding myself in the weirdest place. I whine here, I ranted here, I expressed here, and all my pasts are here. I will find myself to be here, even in the future. No matter how tossed I was, how wrecked I would be, or how beautiful my life could be. To be here with the community is a place that I could never found if I didn’t take the first step. I am not leaving, will always be here together with you.

The one that left

Last year, a dear friend left us. A young talented writer passed away. While her social media was handled and managed by her friends, her WordPress still exists. I think her friends couldn’t retrieve her credentials on that matter. May her soul find peace and blessing.

It made me realized if some other writers in the same situation. They didn’t come back because they are no longer here. The thought creeps on me and made me sad. I don’t know how many of you left, without even saying goodbye to us. I can only pray and hope that all is well. Even if it’s true, I can pray you will be in peace.

I believe in you!

If you feel lost and unmotivated, I won’t tell you to stop. Take a break and get some rest. Do it again when you are ready. If other people doesn’t tell you, let me tell this… I BELIEVE IN YOU! I believe in your words, your arts, your passion, your creativity, and the strength in you.

Keep on writing, creating, and don’t forget to give back to the community. There will always be someone new that starts their journey.

And please, do reach me on other social media platform.

Twitter
Instagram

Towards my future with you.

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To the one that will be,
In my future,
A love that I have been,
Seeking all these years,

Even I don’t know,
Where you are now,
Might be far away,
Or perhaps one that got away,

Or you have been here,
Reading here all along,
Keeping your distance,
With no actions,

Or you are someone,
I never meet yet,
Across the distance and space,
Through the barriers and boundaries,

I am here still trying,
To stay strong,
And keep going,
Towards my future with you.